date: Saturday, March 19, 2011
title:
i have not been blogging for so freaking longgg. thanks to carissa again....
its so dead. sorry ah, no time to keep blogging cos i hardly use the com due to my laziness.
date: Thursday, December 23, 2010
title:
now its FANGIRL TIME!
thanks to carissa, i am blogging again:)
heheh.
sorry for that last post down there, i was really terribly sad.
OMG KEY ROCKS! onew tooo! hehehe. i dont like shinee i only like that particular two haha!
cute right, i know, cos i am aleen tan yu ling mah(:
anyway horh, today was an ok day. its actually the sec 1 registeration day for the new ppeeppooppllee. then erm, we went to mac and ate and went home. thats quite summarised le, so dont ask for much :)
i love debbie's wallet man. its so freaking cute and chubby.its stitch thats why, once again,
KEY ROCKS!
date: Thursday, December 2, 2010
title: just like how it was predicted
i knew this would happened even before i went. i was devastated. why did you all treat me like this? ok, let me put it this way without blaming u all. why do i act this way, what the hell is the prob in me?!
i already knew the trip will be like this. the first few days i tried to stick with u all closely and talk and laugh together. it didnt work at all. you all continued to stick together without me like a glue and left me out. u alll wouldnt understand me, i think. i was fuckin frustrated, i didnt wan to confront u all. i kept it and didnt wan to make a mountain out of a mole hill. i am so sorry.
even if i tell u personally how i feel, u will not tell me some ways to just be with u people. instead, u will tell me my weakness and all those nasty stuffs that i didnt wan to hear. i know, u must be doing it again now. i have tried my best but it didnt seem to help abit at all that time in japan.
of cos in this training trip, i have learnt alot in playing the instrument. bonding with band mates? no. it was jus like before. if u ask me why io kept asking u the same question over and over, thats the reason why. if u dont know the reason why, i will tell u again now. YOU ALL STICKED TOGETHER WHENEVER IT IS AND TALK TO EACH OTHER PRIVATE STUFFS. THE HISTORY IS GOING TO REPEAT ITSELF, TRUST ME. I WAS THE PERSON THAT KEPT SEPARATING U ALL FROM ALL THESE SMALL GATHERINGS U ALL MADE TO TALK PRIVATE THINGS. the history u all made last time was really horrible. omg, i hate it.
i know i cant stick to u all like a book to its spine. but please, jus let me be able to be with u all. i became very paranoid because of all this. if u hate me just say it. u have no need to treat me like this, then u will safe ur energy to stop straining those jaw muscles. i am such a goner. i really regreted going for this trip.
examples were like those in the singapore airport, that time when i asked u what happened to the instrument, u answered me like i am such a idiot by telling me in that tone. another example was in japan. not another, a thousand other. there are so many that it kills my brain cells and i dont wan to mention it cos it breaks my eye bag.
u all must be thinking that i am such a childish person. i am not. so what if i have not hit puberty? my thinking changes. please dont think that : is u who do not stick with us what, blame us for what. dont be so childish lah.u also ownself dont follow us what. u keep on doing this. it was u who keep following others one loh.
its not like this really. i follow others cos i do not want to hurt myself more. i follow u all was an attempt to talk and laugh and bond with u all (fails all the time). i dont wanna tell u this in the face was to not start a quarrel. i do not need u all to understand me, jus wanna say out my feelings thats all. comprehending is not a solution. accepting is then a solution.
why do u all treat me like this? is the history repeating itself?
date: Saturday, October 30, 2010
title: eYe
i have chosen what i want. i want CHEM BIO! i decided that i would rather take the sub i am interested in rather than the one im not. cos i know and confirm that i would dread if i took PHY.
anyway, i would like to also post my report for 2010 eye. i am just elated that i hitted over my target. :) not here to flaunt my results. dont get the wrong idea, thanks shiploads.
english-A2
chinese-A2
mathematics-A1
science-A1
geography-A1
history-A1
literature-A1
design and technology-A1
art-A1
home economics-A1
total-843/1000
percentage-84.3%
class/level position: 1/41 , 1/162
comments:
a commited, highly dependable student councilor, Aileen(eh hmm) is an extremely kind and helpful pupil who offers her unconditional assistance to her classmates in need. she builds trust and rapport with her peers, and is well-liked by themshe contributes effectively inteams, and is proactivein daily decision-making. to improve, Aileenneeds to develop her competencies in public speaking in order to articulate her ideas and opinions in class more confidently and succinctly(?). this would put her in good stead for greater leadership roles in future to complement her academic capabilities.
Ps.: i got my fringe already, but it kinda like not much diff from last time.
date: Monday, October 25, 2010
title: today is a disaster
hi.
i am angry today.
damn angry.
i feel like telling to those people whom i hate for a very long time, straight in the face that "you are a bitch and a nastard, stop doing those childish stuff, SCRAM!"
GRGGRGRRRRHHHHH.
goodness, i am gonna burst into a minion pieces of curry puffs now.
better back off before you get contaminated!
aleen.
date: Thursday, October 21, 2010
title: STEPS TO SUCCESS
hi. here to help u in your studies as well as your welfare. if u think i am just showing off my talents, eff off. if you are really interested on how i manage my time and fun, read on :)
in school:
- dont be late for school
- respect our teachers(during promotion day, teachers sit for meetings to think which stream u go, they can sabotage u if u are disrespectful to them)
- bring your textbooks and files
- exclude unnecessary items like nail clippers, hair gel etc
- make urself presentable
- do not be dumb, as in act blur, try to understand
- dont sleep during lessons
- focus on everything
at home:
- bathe, its the ever first thing to do when u get home. (it refreshes your brain, so u can be more relaxed and stress-free)
- eat, get your stomachs filled! (very important, take care of your health first)
- control, tell yourselves not to get involved with computer related activities.
- prioritize! arrange you hmk in the form of which one is more important.
- finish your hmk in less than 4 hour.
- got test? prepare for your test.
- MAKE NOTES OF YOUR OWN. TEACHERS' NOTES ARE RUBBISH.(your notes lets you understand better although the basis were from the teachers', understand first before you say "i know")
- you are free now (it will be around 7-9pm then)
mentality
- tell yourself : "i can do it". "i am the survivor". "i am the champion". "i am the best". "i must do well". "dont slack"
- set a logical target and goal. write it down and paste it on the wall. this wall must be the one you will never fail to see everyday.
- try to think things this way: hard work before best work
- dont quit dont quit
- dont give up, it will be all over
well, thats all i have for you, whether you wan to help yourself is up to you. you may not follow my ways and create one of your own. :)
REMEMBER THIS:
our fatigue is often
caused not by work,
but by worry,
frustration and
resentment
-Dale Carnegie
i know it is like quite no link, but, this quote really had a great impact on me.
date: Monday, October 18, 2010
title: after exams fun
hey people!!!!! its after teh exams! lets PARTY!!!!!
YEAH MAN! its after the exams already.. oh my gosh its gonna be damn freaking fun when i enter sec 3 cos upper sec already. anyway, i am damn confident that i can enter A math. if its the other case, i am lost for words myself. yesterday went out with cherlynn tan. actuallly chermin was able to tag along but due to her laziness, she rather stay at home and become a roasted piggy. haha..
anyway, any suggestions on what to do during the holidays??? its starting to get bored man althoguh it haven even started. some more there is only one wish and target i got:
i know that seems a bit unbelievable but i trully want to do that. and in order to remember my presence there, i am gonna carve my name on every tree i come across! mwahahhahahah. so tired today, wan to go gym, no one accompany.. haiyo, the world is so big.
